If Only I Could Tell You by Hannah Beckerman is a dark, tense and heart-wrenching story about sisters, family and estranged relationships. The characters are the ideal portrayal of a torn apart family who is trying to get by and the story itself will take you on an emotional rollercoaster, with you having no idea what will spark the tears next. If Only I Could Tell You by Hannah Beckerman is out now from Orion Publishing Group.
TRIGGER WARNING: Graphic description of a miscarriage
Audrey is the mother of two grown-up daughters, Jess and Lily, who have not spoken to one another in a very long time. Jess holds a grudge against Lily which has caused the estrangement, but will never reveal why. With a teenage daughter each of their own, Mia and Phoebe, Audrey knows that she has to get the two of them to speak once more, for their daughters’ sakes if not for their own. Audrey soon discovers that her cancer is worse than she thought, so now time is of the essence to bring her daughters back together once more.
Why this is a brilliant read…
Beckerman took me on quite the emotional journey. From miscarriages to cancer to suicide, volatile men and estranged relationships, this is a very deep and heavy book. I adored Audrey, Mia and Phoebe, while Jess and Lily were given the perfect portrayals based on their past experiences. The plot is so insanely tangled, with the author revealing sections bit by bit to create a clear picture of events. As this disentangling commenced, I found myself unable to put it down.
The characters are written beautifully; Jess is a protective mother bear, keeping Mia in her sights along with her mum and making sure no harm comes their way. On the other hand, Lily is the workaholic mother, keeping Phoebe at arms length while failing to notice the flaws in her marriage. Mia and Phoebe are very different yet focused young women who are determined to help their grandmother with her mission. And Audrey is the loving, yet dumbfounded mother who cannot understand Jess and Lily’s feud.
The writing of this novel is stunning; I loved Beckerman’s use of language and the way she told the story using some amazing metaphors. I thought that the pacing was great and every other chapter gave me something to latch onto and keep me reading. This is a true example of great writing.
Overall, If Only I Could Tell You by Hannah Beckerman is a wonderful, heart-wrenching tale of family drama, relationships and the tensions between siblings. I would recommend this book to those who love dark dramas; if you can handle hard-hitting, realistic yet rather macabre events, then this is the book for you. Thank you Orion and NetGalley for my free e-arc in exchange for an honest review.